Looking for Relief—Again

Happier times last spring.

The extreme pain is back. My last cancer update,  posted a week ago painted a rosy picture. The hospice medical staff had arrived at a point where Angelique’s pain seemed to be managed, but it only lasted a couple of days. Her pain seems to outpace whatever medicines seem to have it under control.

She had a follow-up appointment with her oncologist in Austin this morning. We made it about a mile down the road when she exclaimed, “I can’t do this”, so we immediately doubled back and returned home. We managed to get her back into the house and into bed, where she spent most of the rest of the day in relative agony. As those of you who have visited her know, she has moved into Danielle’s room, where the bed is lower to the ground and the trip to the toilet is shorter.

It’s after 10 pm now. She’s in bed awaiting her 11:00 dose of meds. The pain usually seems to be worse at night, which is both mystifying and frustrating in and of itself.

She’s a strong woman, but she is weakening. I feel the need to check in on her by the hour, but I must get my sleep too. This is hell, and it’s getting harder.

Our priest is supposed to stop by tomorrow to offer her some spiritual encouragement, if she feels up to it. If you seek your help in the Lord, please ask for help for her too.

I have had many of you comment on this blog. Thanks for that. If you would like a direct response, or if you would like a more personal update, click on my profile. There you will find a link to my email address. I will be glad to respond to your personal messages, as time and energy allow.

Thanks for caring. Stay tuned…